Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts

Words & Doubt

His words, typed insecurely.
Scared to peek around the corner of your eyeball.
To be consumed by your brain, judged for their quality or lack of.
A constant refrain paralyzing each finger as it moves on the keyboard of his brain.

The words spoken in his classroom,
Heard by growing minds forming opinions of the world.
Everyday.
Lasting a lifetime in the brains of the next generation.
Intentionally measured meanings and tones striking a hopeful lesson for all.
A constant refrain paralyzing the mind speaking his lessons.

A conversation with a friend replayed in his head a hundredth time.
Jokes misinterpreted, potentially offending.
Viewpoints expressed casting a new questioning opinion.
Stories told among the group, the relevance to the thread lost, questioned, ignored.
A constant refrain paralyzing his words and drawing him more into himself.

A thesis paper researched to death.
The paraphrasing misconstrued.
Connections to the core lost among the citations.
Conclusions drawn like a rubber band stretching the validity.
Drafts submitted, edits made, galloping farther and farther from the original.
A constant refrain paralyzing the completion of his degree.

All the words swirling in his head.
An outlet needed to dispense the thoughts.
Afraid to publish, to let the world participate in the inner workings of his mind.
Clicking the publish button and opening the door.
To the nightmare of a haunted house;
Or a dream of love embraced in a hug.
A constant refrain paralyzing his work from seeing the open door.


 

Cabin Week

Water like glass in the bay.
The morning sun glancing off the burning fog.
Black flies taking their time, buzzing the early risers.
Me, looking up from the ink to capture a moment.

Fisher people mosey across the grass,
To their dew stained boats.
Cursing motors that won't turn.
And bait left a mess by the littles.
And lines twisted like bowls of spaghetti.

With a shot, boats race off.
Disappearing for hours.
Finding the elusive,
The one that got away.

The bay quiet, returned to glass.
Families in cabins playing games.
Splashing in pools.
Jumping on floaties.
Laying on a towel.
Reading through the stack of novels,
That never diminishes.

Sipping an afternoon cocktail of relaxation.
In a hammock between two trees,
While the rest of the world goes by.

A potluck dinner,
Dished up in the Lodge.
Everyone coming together.
Charred brats and potatoes 8 ways.
Laughter, drama, new friendships, and life-long bonds,
Cemented every year with overstuffed plates and bellies.

The sun bows behind the cabins,
Black flies give way to mosquitoes,
Friends find chairs,
With beverages,
Along the shore.

Lightning rolls across the stillness.
Laughter spills from cabin windows.
The moon closes another adventure, 
Fills the promise of more to come.

-July 4, 2021

Skipping

Holding Mom's hand,
Walking to the city bus stop.
Just past the candy store.
Talking quietly about the world of a 4-year-old.
Full of promise and wonder.

The bus, full of strangers and experiences.
The child, full of questions.
Deposited at the library.
Storytime.
Kids.
Puppets,
Quiet.
It erupts into playtime,
Exploring nooks,
The crannies of a new space.
Being shushed by librarians,
Given books to read on the risers.

Holding hands,
Leaving the stories behind.
The bus takes us home.
Walking past the candy store.

Suddenly, a skill conquered.
Never done before.
Tried and failed, even that day.

Skipping.

Little walking jumps,
Down the sidewalk.
All the way home.
With mom close behind, smiling, clapping.

Skipping.

July 4, 2021

Everywhere

Everywhere, every little thing, Blessings everywhere.

Here, guitars, drums, tambourines, and Amens.
Downstairs, tiny shining faces soaking up the Word.
Over there, Fellowship of His people in chocolate chip cookies.

At home, a simple table Prayer of Thanks for everything.
In the operating room, the doctors and nurses, hands guided thru Him, giving, healing.
Waiting in the toy aisle, a random and strange God bless you for a sneeze.
Before school, the music of Praise streaming in the classroom speakers.

In the silence of sleep, a happy, unconscious thought of an ever-present Angel.
A baby, too young to know, but sent and accepted by All.
In the alley, a pretty pink bike found by a new Friend for a beautiful little girl.
Between two people, simple Love and a lifelong Vow.

Everywhere,  every little thing, Blessings everywhere.

-Undated, circa 2009


Not Ready

How do you touch her?
Doesn't matter, she touches you.

Her history, to me, not important.
Holiday issues, hers, not yours or ours.
Boxes are baggage, many ways.
A garage full of weight.

Moving on, you, not me.
Not ready.

Heartache is a purple bracelet.
Firmly wrapped around my heart.
A ruby red slipper, never worn.
A lady bug landing on my sleeve.

Not ready.

Painted eggs.
A tradition, troubled now.
Easter colors faded but vibrant in my mind.

Not ready.

Nap talks after school.
Taco Bell lunches.
Special times, 
Still longed for.

Not ready.

-Undated, circa 2005

Family

10 years ago.
A twinkle.
A feeling.
A spell cast.
Sure to last.

Just beginning.

8 years ago.
Love grew.
Blossomed.
"I do" was said.
Happiness forever.

Just beginning.

4 years ago.
A welcome addition.
Love expanded.
Exploding everywhere.
A family grows.

Just beginning.

9 months ago.
Pink takes over.
Fireworks blast.
Love expanding.
Again.

A family complete.

-Undated, circa 2008

Time Passes

What the clock says,
Don't know, care.

As time passes.

Six months,
Hour by hour,
Gone.
The world moves,
Stands still.

Time passes.

They come.
And go.
Family.
Friends.
Many, many others.

Time passes.

The hours exist.
But are lost.
Minutes.
A precious few.

Time passes.

Eventually.
The sun sets.
Another Angel.
Sent to watch.
Over us.

Time passes.

-Undated, circa 2005

Conquered

He who angers you conquers you.

Years, a precious few.
At 57, gone too young. 
Deeds, definitely unsung.

What is Your plan?

There was stull so much love,
For this growing clan.
Grandkids to meet and spoil.
Staying strong despite her toil.

What is Your plan?

-Undated, circa 2005

The Important Things

Amy, the Sunshine of my life.
Ian, the Joy of a firstborn for a proud papa.
Ella, a lasting twinkle in the eyes of a happy heart.
Dad, the quiet, my unspoken hero.
Mom, the love that left too early.
Family, the glue sticking it all together.
Friends, the system of my world.
Stillness, the calm that quiets the storms.
Walks, the sidewalk rivers that follow me.
Pets, the happy paws always in the right mood.
Health, the assurance of everything.
Memories, the tears and smiles that pass the troubled days.

-April 3, 2009

Six Months

She is gone, up to her place.
A smile on her watching face.
Seeing the smiles and joy of a newborn boy.

I still cry.
Despite how hard I try,
To keep all my feeling inside.

My heart gets twisted and turned,
Feeling like it got burned,
By God, the all-knowing, who took her away.

I try my best not to sway,
Fall down that slippery slope.
Keep it together, my mind, trying to keep the hope.

The light flickers and tears flow.
A family dealt a horrible blow.

Being strong, doing my best,
Knowing she is gone,
Up to her place.
A smile on her watching face.

-Undated, circa 2009

The Letter

She knew she was dying.
She knew it, we all did.
The letter was perfect,
She knew when she would be Flying.
Not addressed, not dated.
Not found until Wings were added.

The calm blue handwriting,
Sincere and heartfelt honesty.
From where all great letters and love grow.

Dad, the ever generous and romantic gentleman,
Through all the years.
Brother and I just like dad,
With our loving families.
Our sons, shining like they should.

The unspoken words, 
Everyone so desperate to hear.
Inspiration amidst the heartache, pain, and fear.
Comfort on paper.
Knowing her feelings and thoughts,
her voice in words, easy to hear.

Constant caring,
From an everpresent Angel.

-Undated, circa 2005